Finally

Well, here I am in what has become my "normal." I am up coughing with not an end in sight.

For the past two months (at least) I have had some sort of interruption or determent in the process of trying to sleep. At one point, I went for over 30 days without one full night of sleep, and I cannot even begin to describe how frustrating that is. Just try to imagine it. For a whole month... yikes.


I am finally fed up. I just emailed my doctors to see what we can do about this. At this point, I have no clue. I don't know if I am really "sick" or what is quite going on. I have never faced this sort of problem before for this length of time; the waking up part is not shocking, what is shocking is that it has not stopped. Which is probably why it has taken me this long to finally do something about it. I just kept hoping and hoping that this all would diminish, maybe I would sleep two nights per week all the way through and not wake up every night... it's easy to see how desperate you can become and how the very, very small things become very, very wonderful victories. But, it just seems I can't quite kick this, whatever the heck it is, so I need some help. I just pray that whatever my doctors decide works and that I can start sleeping again like normal people do.